Wedding, job, and money. What do they have in common? STRESS

Dorm roll please...........the wedding date is September 20, 2014 at Sunset Hills Country Club in Carrollton, GA at 5:00 pm! Our colors are white, black, deep red, and silver. Our flower girls are my nieces Anna Grace and Allie and our honorary groomsmen are my nephews Caden and Maddox. The only way I convinced my nephew, Maddox, (he's 5) was by telling him that we have these magical sunglasses that if he puts them on he'll be invisible and no one will see him walk down the aisle. He's pretty shy in large crowds. Caden and Maddox are going to walk down the aisle wearing sunglasses with signs that say,"Uncle Chris" "here comes your girl." They're going to be ADORABLE! My dress is gorgeous and my hair dresser and I are already talking about hair ideas. Everything is going well, except, everything is so dang expensive. With me only working part time and with Chris no longer traveling for work he took a LARGE pay cut, so it's quite a stressful time. The bills are hard enough, then you add on the price of a wedding. Woah. It makes my blood pressure go up just thinking about it today. Chris got hired for a second job today, and I am looking for a second job. With me finding a second job however, I have to let my current job know so there isn't a "conflict of interest." If I found another full time job, I wouldn't be opposed to taking it because I need the hours, the stability of 40 hours, and the benefits. If I could find any way to make some extra money, I would be down for it. I just don't know what to do. I'm glad I have an outlet of writing to express my stress. I just wish I knew what to do. I've prayed and have had others pray, but I still feel unresolved. I'm excited to be marrying my best friend, but it is giving me extreme anxiety planning and paying for everything. I have to have some sort of change, so we can begin saving money. Chris's second job is PRN, which means, "as needed." I'm not sure what I'm going to do, but I have to do something. I always feel like I have an elephant sitting on my chest and butterflies in my belly. The more I think about it, the worse I feel. If I had a full time job i would feel so much better. I think this is what I have to do. It will make everything so much easier, where to look? I'm sorry to bellyache about this, when I know so many people have it worse, but this is my current situation, it is the only thing on my mind. I can't even have normal conversations without the anxiety creeping into my mind. 

Alright, that's it for now, but before I sign off, I'm just going to ask you to pray for me, or send me good thoughts and vibes. I need all that I can get.

Goodnight.

XoXo,

Tia